Catching up to Say

Ah, GodBox needs some attention to form and appearance. When I can, I will do what I can to improve it. For now various points or observations.

I want to be merely practical, but you do not give me time to waste in that manner. Instead I think realistically, of you. So I am stripped of projects and opinions. It is fairly amazing and even amusing, because we know ourselves at least enough to know to humor and relief in being present in love.

Every day offers risks but no loss that I am aware of. I lose nothing I seek to recover. I know I am growing older, drawing closer to our appointment. Thinking this way, how do I begin to discuss politics, except to say, I love. This is your instruction.

We have prayers, such as in the Office, where we thank you in the morning, we ask for understanding in the evening. We are instructed to pray always. I hope I do so in my love for you and in being open. Open, to what another person says or does; for them to be read as what is said or done in itself, read with care, both the so-called good & bad and everything in between. I hope I am fair, and myself. For I almost never shut up or stop doing things. I would be a terrible monk. Terrible. And as to reading, I can't even read Genesis at church without almost failing to get the words out. I withhold wishing that I should be steadier or what have you, because I cannot afford to doubt your gifts, not for a moment, and I would rather fail or dismay or disappoint in your name, in passion, than succeed in mine, though as you know people are so very kind, praise be.

I do love the Office. Thank you for your gift in prompting the church to make it available to all. I can hardly express what it means.

This writing (and this blog) will surely not devolve into confession or complaint, as you have provided an avenue, for which I again - not to be redundant - offer thanks. I have found a form for reconciliation speaking plainly about my struggles and praying for mercy in plain words, which I believe is pleasing to you. Certainly, you strengthen me. I take that as proof I do not fail you.

As in all things, at all moments, I stand ready for instruction or promptings. This is one way of saying that I recognize that you are in all things, in the movement from then to now, from here to there. If I were anything but alive I would have a definite opinion or position I suppose (!)

But you have placed us in a kind of boundless river, albeit one with a definite source and clear and positive end. Elsewise is the earth, and space; time and the movement of love, sleep, and love.